Due to my health issues we are downsizing so as to focus on the treatments I need. This has been a wonderful healing journey in and of itself. To let go of all the STUFF, the things that we have lugged around for years and piled higher in the garage. It’s amazing when you prepare to move to a small town-home without a garage, you realize how much junk you have saved on the outside chance you may need it. It brings security right? I might NEED it someday.
When something like this hits, you realize very quickly, there are very few THINGS you need. And security comes from within far more than from what is piled in a garage or shoved in a closet. So the mere act of sorting through the last 10 years of your life, deciding what is absolutely essential and what is just dragging you down, keeping you stuck perhaps, is as liberating as burning your bra must have felt like in the 70’s! It is exciting, almost daring and makes me feel young again.
The act of “letting go”, surrendering… not in a ‘throw in the towel’ sort of way, but just getting to a place of acceptance, non-resistance, feels truly exhilarating. I dare you to try it. Don’t wait for a brain tumor to shake you or wake you up. Just dive in and let go!
I don’t think it is any coincidence that this is happening just a week before the Sundance Film Festival which premieres “8: The Mormon Proposition”, a film which features our family and will most likely have a profound affect on our lives. I remember the symbol of the Rebel card…
The Rebel ~ “The powerful and authoritative figure in this card is clearly the master of his own destiny.On his shoulder is an emblem of the sun, and the torch he holds in his right hand symbolizes the light of his own hard-won truth. Whether he is wealthy or poor, the Rebel is an emperor because he has broken the chains of society’s repressive conditioning and opinions. He has formed himself by embracing all the colors of the rainbow emerging from the dark and formless roots of his unconscious past and growing wings to fly into the sky. His very way of being is rebellious – not because he is fighting against anybody or anything, but because he has discovered his own true nature and is determined to live in accordance with it. The Rebel challenges us to be courageous to take responsibility for who we are and to live our truth”
So I LET GO …. of the fear, of resistance, of anger at an institution that broke our hearts, of expectations, of disappointments. And I STAND UP for equality, goodness, love, charity, my children and yours. I am ready, excited and willing to live my truth, to do my part in this civil rights movement of my day! I might even start by burning my bra!!